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can we all agree that this was the worst cas/dean moment ever. dean wanted cas to get angry. he wanted him to put up a fight and give him some answers. instead, cas ignored deans attempts and carried on in his own little world. this scene just breaks my little destiel heart
#worst moment in the history of everything ever #cas just looks like a child and dean was expecting him to get mad or do something #but he doesnt #cas just goes nad picks up the stupid game that dean swiped onto the floor #and doesnt even expect dean to apologize because when does he ever do that #and dean looks so angry in that second gif #but hes mostly angry at himself because fuck he did it again #and okay hes a little mad at cas for not getting mad back and frustrated that he wont help them #and he wants to say hes sorry but he doesnt even know where to begin #jfc no #i hate this moment so much #its the most heartbreaking thing #no one look at me right now #gfdi #get me off of this ride
…what was I just saying about this relationship being abusive, ok CAN WE JUST.
K I dunno if anyone ever asked Misha this, but I am like 99% sure that CrazyCas was being played as someone suffering *SEVERE* PTSD. Watch his reactions to things. How he flinches at loud noises. How he teleports outta the room when people around him start arguing. And, ya know, the guy’s got a lot to be traumatised about. Leviathans, etc. So here we see a Cas who has retreated into his own mind, into his own world. After he took on Sam’s madness (as I recall the Winchesters merrily fucked off and left him in a MENTAL HOSPITAL…!!!) and after everything that happened, he surely had to develop some serious coping mechanisms. He retreated into an internal world that was non-threatening. Instead of focusing on these huge bigger-picture issues that have occupied him for so long (heaven and hell, obedience versus free will, etc etc) he zooms in on the little details. He seems to find comfort in them. Bees. Flowers. Fucking board games. Shit that he could devote his attention to without being completely overwhelmed, and without returning to the guilt that is rotting him from the inside out, eating him alive.
What does Dean do? He comes along, actually TELLS Cas “Nobody cares that you’re broken,” and swipes the board game off the table. He does this to somebody suffering from a severe mental illness, from extreme, psychologically-necessary-at-this-point, detachment to reality. Yeah. Way to take care of your friend.
Dean just seems like a profoundly selfish person to me. He only sees this situation in terms of what HE needs from Cas, and being pissed off that he’s not going to get it because it’s, like, soooo inconvenient that Cas has mentally gone off the rails. At no point does he comfort him. At no point does he seem genuinely concerned, or worried, or…AARRRRGGGHHH Dean Winchester pisses me off ok.
huh, i interpreted the scene a little differently from dean’s point of view.
dean’s entire life was thrown off the rails when john changed so drastically after mary’s death: he went from a sweet, loving daddy to an abusive drunk. because of this, it’s understandable that dean would be scared of people changing.
castiel’s a sort of constant with his stiff manner, bluntness and misunderstanding of pop culture: even when he disappears, he always comes back in the end. (dean’s hurt because of cas going MIA when dean got back together with lisa could possibly be connected to the fact that the situation completely defied that last point.)
dean becomes visibly uncomfortable whenever this constantness changes and, with that, he becomes provocative in his words and actions—the whole “baby in a trench coat” gag was a good example of this, and, on a much larger scale, so was the entire broken!cas arc.
interestingly enough, this sort of provocation only appeared after cas beat dean up in the alley for wanting to say yes to michael—it was a pure show of anger and hurt on castiel’s behalf—a raw display of emotion that was the closest thing to castiel’s core that dean had seen up to that point. it was cas with all his walls down.
what i’m getting at is that dean could very well be trying to elicit the same reaction he saw in the alleyway now—we know very well that dean takes the weight of the world on his shoulders. it wouldn’t be a far stretch to say that he blames himself for castiel having ptsd and therefore is also aiming to land himself some kind of punishment for that.
something else he could very possibly be trying to do is reassure himself that the castiel he knows is still in there through trying to provoke him to breaking point. it’s very selfish, yes, but dean’s an emotional, impulsive person and often doesn’t think these things through.
in the second gif, dean looks furious. but the thing is, we know dean says what he feels—if he was angry with cas, he’d still be yelling at him. this is much more of an internal anger, from what i can tell.
dean’s body language is also really weird in this scene: in the first gif, both of dean’s arms are on the table, aggressive and challenging. it’s pretty much a, “fight me” stance. in the second gif, however, he’s half closed off, half open. a hand resting between the legs in males is often a defensive position, but at the same time, his other arm—his left arm, the one that would, if lowered, conceal his heart—his flung wide open. in other words, if cas were to suddenly attack him, he’d very easily be able to stab dean exactly where it would kill him. even the hand between his legs is hanging loosely, despite him being turned toward cas and easily at risk of being hurt if cas attacked him.
usually, i’d chalk this up to a coincidence, but something about jensen’s posture seems very deliberate in this scene, especially considering how odd his pose in the second gif is.
anyway, back to the analyzation of the scene. along with that anger dean is radiating, he’s also refusing to look directly at cas, instead fixing his gaze on the game—he’s not belligerent or defensive of his actions; rather, he feels guilty.
this whole theme of provoking cas whenever he unsettles dean by acting different than usual continues throughout the story arc—to use another example, the whole “nobody cares that you’re broken, cas!” scene. i can’t find gifs right now since i’m on mobile, but i urge you to watch dean’s expression right after he says that—he watches cas for a reaction, then seems to panic when there is none. soon after, he looks absolutely terrified. these emotions all flash by in a second, then he’s composed himself again.
so, basically, what i’m saying is that i don’t think dean’s constant provocation during this arc is due to him being annoyed that cas isn’t up and about, ready to do his bidding, but that the changes in cas are scaring him to the point that he regresses into performing very childish acts of provocation in an attempt to get a reaction. he’s done this before, once again using the “baby in a trench coat” example—but that was more of a snarky remark to elicit a small reaction, a snappy retort or a glare—the latter of which he succeeded in getting.
obviously, he’s used to these mini-reassurances working out, but now with broken!cas, he’s getting no reaction whatsoever. so, dean progressively worsens in behavior until he drops a major bombshell by telling cas that no one cares that he’s broken—the lowest blow he can think of, considering the fact that cas often chooses dean to converse and interact with, not to mention the whole profound bond thing.
so, in other words, while i don’t condone dean’s actions at all and agree with you saying how selfish he’s being—i don’t think it’s dean objecting to the inconvenience; i think that cas being so different is triggering a subconscious response in dean that leads to all these childish “temper tantrums”—especially since the trauma with john’s sudden change in persona took place when dean was a child.
just my twopence on the scene.
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