crossroadscastiel:

So in the same episode where the spirit of a woman recalled her love of a man who couldn’t love her back completely because he was so bound to his work that he was unwilling to settle down, we also get Dean confessing to wanting to experience certain people and things differently than he ever has, that he wants more than he’s ever allowed himself, that he wants to fall in love.

He can’t quite comprehend living one life and then giving it all up for another, but being bound by this duty, by this life, is what has always held Dean back from truly experiencing a life of his own. It’s why he was more in love with the idea of Lisa than he was with her, because that entire year he was with her, he never completely let go.

And this duty is what holds Dean back from love. Just as the artist was bound to his work, Dean is bound to being a hunter, to living by the blade and dying by it. He says he always believed that’s how he would go out, at the end of a blade or the barrel of a gun, but death is licking at his heels now and there is so very much he still has left to do. So much he has left to feel.

If it is duty, a mission, a life of dedication to one thing and one thing alone that prevents Dean from loving, from feeling love, just as it did the artist, I wonder how Dean would react were a certain someone to confess their love to him after all this time. Would he finally see that he is permitted to break the chains of his life, to return that love, to know what it means to feel something other than hopelessness and fear?

I would try and wrap this up with something articulate and profound, but I’m still trying to fully process that we got a straight up canon confession from Dean that he has people in his life he wants to experience differently. Dean Winchester is bisexual as hell and I’ll give you exactly one guess as to who that person could possibly be bye.