bluestar86:

12×19. It was so painful as well because Cas had been missing for a few episodes and Dean had been acting like a worried husband, then Cas came back and we get this beautiful Romeo and Juliet shot first: 

“what light through yonder window breaks?”

… like wowzers o.O

Then we get all our minds blown to smithereens with THIS

and THEN after that insanely tense and romantic moment (which continues to kill me btw) we get the exchange between Sam and Dean with the “other way” they were looking for which led to Dean being all happy and saying:

WHICH THEN lead to THIS BRUTAL SCENE:

WHICH URGH IMPLIES FOR THE FIRST TIME EVER THAT CAS MAYBE HAS A ROOM OF HIS OWN AND LOOK AT DEAN’S HEARTBREAK AT CAS LEAVING AGAIN WTF MY HEART?

Which then lead to THIS:

WHICH I KID YOU NOT STOPPED MY HEART ON FIRST WATCH BECAUSE I THOUGHT THESE FUCKERS WERE GONNA KISS EVEN THOUGH IT WOULD HAVE MADE NO SENSE THATS HOW MUCH THIS MOMENT OOZES SEXUAL TENSION AND JUST ARGH THIS FUCKING EPISODE.

And lets be clear here, these are only a few choice moments out of the insane WEALTH OF MOMENTS from 12×19. 12×19 is like the epitome of Destiel in one episode. It has angst, it has heartbreak, it has mutual pining, it has a “kind of” love confession, it oozes with sexual tension, it has prolonged eye sex, it has an awkward Sam stuck in the middle… it has EVERYTHING. 

I hate it.

12×19 is a masterpiece of subtextual film making and romantic subplot exploration to the highest degree. People will be writing essays about this episode for years to come. I have never had the displeasure of having my heart ripped out so forcefully and unexpectedly as in this episode and I frequently cry about it even now over a year later. I will never be done picking it apart.

So Nonny, I have gone wildly off topic seeing as you only wanted to know where the gif was from, but basically what I’m say is; re-watch 12×19 and join me in the destiel trash can. We can cry together and braid Sam’s hair – He’s here with me of course, doing a fine job as group Chairman. He prefers the dutch plait to the french FYI. But don’t tell him I told you that.

🙂