awkward-fallen-angel:

#translation: I just want all of this over. I wish I never rebelled in the first place. None of this would of happened. I screwed up. I killed the one person who I ever loved. Its all my fault

It blows my mind that I’ve seen this called a destruction of Cas’ character development. I mean, I’m pretty sure that’s grief and pain talking, not Cas. This is, after all, barely minutes after Metatron informs Cas that Dean is dead, and angels, properly controlled, don’t feel much of any emotion. Cas just wants that back, because it would be easier than hurting like he is, and then dying, like he knows he will due to the failing grace.

anastiel:

crossroadscastiel:

9×02 // 9×23

For a show that some claim is not about love, it certainly has been a common thread spun all throughout the season, and in fact…the entire series. But now we’re not simply talking about familial love, we’re also talking about another kind of love. One that you fall headlong in to. One that a villain, who thinks he’s the hero, will use against you. He’ll twirl his blade dripping with your beloved’s blood in front of you and declare that he’s won. He will use that love in an attempt to destroy you. Because you were never doing it for heaven or for humanity. You were doing it for one man all along…

Also, it’s important to note that after Metatron tells his fellow angel that he’s writing a story about love, heartbreak, and…love, the angel asks him if it’s like The Notebook. The Notebook is a story that revolves around two seemingly starcrossed lovers, who are torn apart by life and circumstance, only to reunite down the line, spending the rest of their lives together.

Since you mentioned The NoteBook I just had to add these two gifs. 

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So I said it before & I’ll mention it again: Dean blamed Metatron for TWO specific things that he had done that Dean deemed unforgiveable: Kevin’s death, and stealing Cas’ grace. For hurting Cas. For taking Cas away from him, because without taking that grace none of this would have happened, Cas would never have had to leave him.

Dean rates hurting Cas as being equal with Kevin dying.