You’re Sam Winchester and one day your brother comes back from hell with a handprint on his arm and an angel at his side. They fight and they scream and Dean complains about him but you know that he trusts him. Likes him too, at least a little. Sometimes you wonder if they forget you’re in the room. Sometimes you wonder what would happen if you weren’t.
You’re Sam Winchester, only you’re not, not completely. You’re back from hell, but something is missing. The missing piece is not Castiel, but he’s gone too, at least he is until the very first second Dean calls. You would be upset but you’re too busy wondering when exactly this happened, this “profound bond”. It’s also hard to be upset without a soul.
You’re Sam Winchester, and you’re whole again, sort of. Your brothers best friend is standing in front of you in a circle of holy fire and you ache for him. Dean went to bat for Castiel, and even now he tries to bring him around. You know a little something about betrayal and it’s not hard to imagine what he’s feeling. You hear them arguing in Bobby’s house later that night. Dean calls Castiel “brother” but you think you both know that’s not quite true.
You’re Sam Winchester and your brother doesn’t talk to you about nightmares but sometimes you hear him call out for an angel in the middle of the night. Even that doesn’t hurt as much as the time you opened the trunk of the Impala for a knife and found a freshly laundered trenchcoat.
You’re Sam Winchester and your brother is back from Purgatory. You never thought you’d see him again, but you’re Sam Winchester and the subversion of death no longer surprises you. You’re surprised the angel isn’t with him. Somehow, without even realizing it, you’ve begun to expect him to come back for Dean. It’s happened every time before. But Dean swears he’s gone for good and your heart breaks for him, what he must be feeling.
You’re Sam Winchester and your brother used to tuck you into bed and promise to scare away all the monsters. Today you wake up in the middle of the night, but instead of fighting monsters Dean is standing at the window. His voice cracks like the lightning outside and he tells you he’s seeing Cas. You tell him its impossible but even as the words leave your mouth you remember a beautiful blonde girl whose smile used to light you up from the inside out. You remember seeing her after she burned. Everywhere. When you warn him to walk past it, you’re speaking from experience. You don’t have a problem with your brother having feelings for an angel, but you wish he didn’t because Castiel is gone for good and now the only unshakable thing in your life looks shaken.
You’re Sam Winchester and you’re in a hotel room going over a case. Angels can manifest anywhere but Castiel comes into being directly behind Dean. You’re not surprised. You suspect the times Dean has seen him to be driven by Cas’s fading power and his attempts to contact the two of you. You tell him this. Dean hesitates, but agrees and that’s it. Right there. That little moment of hesitation. This is the moment where it is suddenly completely clear to you. It’s not just “feelings”, it’s love. Because even with a perfectly logical explanation available, Dean, who is perhaps the only person in the world who is better at repressing things than you yourself, still isn’t sure whether or not he was hallucinating with grief. Dean doesn’t believe in chick flick moments but you watch him watch Cas walk away and you wish he would have one, just this once. Because who knows how long it’s been true, but your brother is in love with an angel. An angel who seems to defy every possible law of death and logic and somehow always ends up back at Dean’s side.
Oh, narrative parallels. These are some quick-and-dirty gifs, but they make the point. SPN makes liberal and obvious use of narrative parallels constantly. That’s not exactly special, honestly, parallel narratives are part of the bedrock of storytelling. It’s a super straightforward concept: they show you a thing that clearly means X, then they show you another thing that draws similarities to the first thing to show that the second thing also means X.
You can’t just conveniently forget how Storytelling 101 works just because something looks kinda gay. This episode is pretty light on Sam-specific development because Sam’s main job today is to make Dean look queer.
Yes, I’m serious.
In the scene where Sam and Dean meet Rio and Gunner, they each do 4 distinct things: they get giddy over recognizing their childhood idol, they stutter and flail while they try to look cool, they admit they had a thing for the person, and they do something fannish and embarrassing. Like so:
Here’s where Lustiel done messed up. So we have Dean opening up to who he assumes is Cas, Lustiel pretends his best to mimic the -oh so warm and affectionate- Castiel to where he lays a hand on his shoulder, tells him it scares him too, they will find out what it is, etc. Dean is legit worried, he needs his angel to do his usual thing where he comforts him, assures him that everything will be fine, and it seems to go okay until Lustiel says, “In the end, it may help draw her out” and right there, we could see Dean’s heart break from his expressions here, there it is. No, Cas would never say this. Cas would say something like “I won’t let you near her again, I will do whatever it takes to break that connection before you have to face her again.” or something along those lines. But no, he wants to “use” this to draw her out? Put Dean in harm’s way and make him even more scared and uncomfortable?
So this, I believe, is one of the reasons the Banshee came after Dean due to a broken heart, as the hint of it was also already set up with the manager of the Retirement Home. Dean reminded us twice the dude was brokenhearted and it was grounds enough to draw the Banshee to him. Another hint was the scene when Cas says to Dean that he won’t have to face Amara alone, Dean thanks him but seems off, like it wasn’t what he wanted or needed to hear. He’s clearly disappointed here.
Dean knows something is off because Cas would never in a million years use him as bait.
THIS. Dean didn’t like "Castiel"s words at all.
Also, shit, you just don’t say stuff like to someone who has felt like a tool to be used and discarded their whole life. It’s how John treated Dean, but Cas became someone who cared about Dean specifically, not what Dean could do for him.
Lucifer knows that, and is using it to his advantage, but it’s playing merry hell with Dean’s sense of self-worth, because he’s programmed to doubt whether anyone actually cares for him.
We most certainly can! And I think it’s Destiel-related (and Amara versus Lucifer) all the way! The song is about someone wondering if their lover is lying to them. There’s doubt, whether what is happening is true, or whether it’ll be gone once daylight comes.
The easy reading here is talking about Amara versus Lucifer. The song is framed around what happens AFTER that. “Will you still love me tomorrow?” It’s also talking about Amara meeting Cas, who is frequently symbolized by the sun, which is what the morning star is. It’s a beautifully selected song because Lucifer is currently wearing Cas so the two meanings become ONE.
All throughout 11×11 we see the setup for Amara vs Lucifer. The victims are all variations of what happened to Cas, with Amara being the banshee (that Lucifer will use against Dean).
Eileen’s dad is suffering from depression (his wife comments it’s good to see him smile and he says that he’s trying
Harold is hated by most of his fellow kind at a hotel (which is how Heaven is compartmentalized)
Arthur is suffering from heartbreak as the result of non verbal communication, sending poop is his response (it’s funny because the Darkness is referred to by Dean as ‘a giant smelly fart’ and in not so many words, basically, a ‘shit storm’ earlier this season). Harold is also staying away from “home”.
The banshee being Amara:
A long dark low cut dress
Dark hair
Ability to compel, get into one’s head
Consumes the victims
So… there’s definitely a Casifer/Amara showdown coming. That much I can say for sure. It’s right in the song and it’s right in all the mirrors. I think it’s important to note that Cas (symbolized by the golden sun by Robbie in 9×18, specifically, but by other parts of the narrative throughout), not Lucifer, is the focus of the mirrors. Well, more specifically, the reasons Cas said “yes” are what are the focus. This makes the Amara/Lucifer fight about Cas in some way. It is also about Dean, who was framed as the last victim and who Lucifer figured out how to exploit to get to Amara in 11×11. Mildred, following her heart and clad in GOLD (a Dean mirror), and Eileen, being unable to be affected by the banshee’s compelling power (a Sam mirror), used teamwork and GOLD (very unique, as mostly the weapons are silver, but it seems Robbie wanted to drive home the sun symbolism here) to finally slay the banshee.
Based on the song, all the mirrors, visual cues, and motifs this is what I’m guessing is coming. Lucifer will use Dean’s bond with Amara to lure her out and then it’ll be up to Sam (unaffected by Amara) and Dean (being true to his heart), to save Cas from the fallout. So far, this is just one set of arc mirrors, we need to see variations before making more educated guesses off this. Robbie is normally very, very good with structure and foreshadowing tho. Hopefully Cas will still be there for Dean, when daylight comes.
– So it could all be the same chick? Morphing into, uh, to different dream girls?
– Yeah, actually. Probably.
[4×14]
Hey, remember how Dean’s siren was a dude?
oh. my god.
i watched this episode on sunday and i just fucking realized the siren literally seduces dean through song.
In this scene in the bar, they’re testing each other on recognizing songs and naming their albums, performers, writers, etc. Dean’s totally won over by Nick when Nick knows more than dean about one of them! Like. On top of the fact that every single time, the siren is presenting the victim with a romantic/sexual version of a different relationship in his life (and we see this for BOTH existing romantic relationships AND platonic ones), and the siren says that he does it to be “in love,” not to just experience any kind of love, this just takes the fucking cake
dean checks out every male mechanic in the airplane hangar, smiling and leering at all of them, without paying attention to the planes. (meta)
man on the plane winks at dean, dean is taken aback but waves anyway before carrying on with the EMF meter. the man apparently had a gaydar which dean was definitely on. (meta)
dean checks out a guy at the party and winks at him, and then a few moments later, turns around to check him out again, and then again when they’re leaving.
dean is disappointed he can’t hook up with someone that night; says it while staring at the same guy (meta #1, #2)
dean has the sports section of the newspaper next to his bed, even though dean isn’t shown to have any interest in the sport. dean is also mostly naked, and his right hand is beneath the covers. (meta)
dean gets the number of a bartender, speaks about them in gender neutral terms. sam asusmes it’s a girl, but dean doesn’t seem interested at all in the woman bartender; suggesting that the number is from the male bartender (meta)
dean has the number of a guy named caleb written down, who dean calls and caleb helps him with the case. dean says it’s their dad’s friend caleb, but the area code suggests he’s gotten the number recently. if it had been their dads friend, he would have had the number in his cellphone already, seeing as he calls him in 1×10 (meta)
sam calls for ash, but he doesn’t answer the door. the second dean calls for him, ash opens the door, naked
contrast between sam and dean’s reactions to seeing ash naked- sam is surprised, but quickly gets over it and goes about his business. dean, on the other hand gets a look at ash’s dick and screws his eyes shut. His reaction is overblown. he avoids looking at his in an extremely pronounced way. his reaction is not in proportion to what is happening in the scene. just before, he had dodged the eyes of Jo, his designated female love interest at the time, in the same way. he basically has the same reaction to Jo and to Ash, but Ash is way more naked. (roughly quoted from)
dean tell’s sam ‘it’s like being roofied man, it doesn’t count’ which sounds like something a closeted guy would say, like ‘we were drunk man, it doesn’t count’ or ‘it was only blow jobs man, it doesn’t count’. this also suggests that dean has done things with other men while roofied or drunk. (while doing stuff with men under the influence of roofies doesn’t necessarily make you bisexual, the way in which dean says it suggests that ‘it didn’t count!’ is an excuse he’s used before)
madison says ’you get a few scotches in him and he started hitting on anyone in a five-mile radius. you know the type.’ sam, after looking at dean, says he does know the type.(notice the gender neutral terms)
dean wants to go to the prison to help deacon, and even though sam keeps saying they should leave, dean refuses. he seems to like deacon a lot and wants his respect.
ash is wearing a new watch that he hasn’t worn in previous episodes, but dean is able to identify him by it later in the episode, suggesting that dean’s visited ash a few times off-screen
dean is paralleled to lily; who killed her girlfriend by touching her, and the scene cuts directly from dean’s touching of dead ash to her.
2×22- all hell breaks loose part two (watch)
when ellen brings up what happened at the roadhouse, we see this reaction shot of dean, but none of sam even though he was also friends with ash, suggesting dean is more bothered by his death
dean’s happy to see ritchie, but his face falls when he sees the woman in ritchie’s room
ritchie goes into sam and dean’s room, and dean immediately begins taking off his clothes like it’s something he’s used to doing in front of this guy. (which it probably is. dean saved ritchie from a succubus in the past, so they’re obviously intimately familiar.) he takes off his fed suit clothes and rolls up his sleeves, something we’ve never seen him do before this moment on the show (meta)
dean checks out the demon!priest guy when they’re done interviewing him
dean asks if sam’s having a sexual dream about angelina jolie, or brad pitt. dean thinks that it’s normal and completely understandable to make ‘happy noises’ while dreaming of brad pitt.
sam and dean both thought the siren infected victims through sex; and when sam finds out dean’s been infected, he immediately accepts that dean apparently had sex with the siren, no surprise or hesitance.
actor who played nick says ‘(nick) enjoyed having control over these boys in a sexual way. It’s a strange way to describe it. Considering the Siren initially appears as a female that seduced men, it was almost as if gender wasn’t a factor for it.’
cas and the orgy girls are waiting for dean to get there before starting the orgy, suggesting it’s something dean takes part in and is a normal part of their lives at the camp. 2014!dean is obviously comfortable enough to let cas see him naked, at the very least
dean canonically likes to wear woman’s underwear. while this doesn’t necessarily mean he’s bisexual, it does show that dean does project stuff like this (onto sam mostly, which we saw when dean asked sam if the bra was his) and it also shows that dean isn’t the macho man that he appears to be on the surface.
he looks at a naked guy’s crotch unnecessarily (they already knew it was the guy they were looking for because of the arm tattoo, credit card and driver’s license they’d already seen)
dean checks out men/looks at men as though he’s hungry for them. (which he probably is, seeing as it’s the famine episode.) examples: cas, cupid (meta #1#2)
three episodes after this, dean tells cas ‘the last person who looked at me like that i got laid’. who’s the last person to look at dean ‘like that’? digger wells. carver wrote both of these episodes, so it’s not coincidental. (meta)
digger asks dean ‘who died and made you queen?’not king.
dean x sid; sid has been buying him beers for a year, dean bothered by the sight of sid with his wife, dean more interested in sid than hot waitresses (meta)
eliot then drags dean into the store away from the guys he was checking out, similarly to how sam did in yellow fever.
fan fiction gap! eliot tells dean he needs to get him more clothes (at night time, in the interrogation room) then dean leaves with eliot. next scene, it’s the day time and they’re at the tailors.
7×20- the girl with the dungeons and dragons tattoo (watch)
teaches charlie how to flirt with a man
dean/charlie parallels (ex. charlie being gay and loving female characters, similar to how dean loves dr sexy)
the people from the video think that sam and dean are queer, and also that dean says awesome too often. unlike in Playthings, dean doesn’t ask ‘why do these guys think we’re gay?’ instead, he asks sam if he says awesome a lot, to which sam replies ‘ no. no, no. no.’ (meta)
sam asks dean “you’re not even gonna see cas while you’re there? then what’s the point?” when he finds out that dean is going to drive 14 hours to idaho, suggesting that unless dean visits cas while he’s there, there’s no point going even though there’s a case there and people are dying
the music when dean watches cas through the window of the gas n’ sip is the same music from when sam was watching amelia through the window in 8×09
dean is visibly bothered by the fact cas is going on a date, but hides it from cas
fan fiction gaps! there’s actually two in this episode- even though only one is really talked about. there’s one before they get to nora’s, from when cas asks for a ride (in which it’s daytime) and when they get to nora’s (at night) and there’s another one after nora’s, in which they leave (at night) and get back to the gas n’ sip the next day. what did they do during those hours? we’ll never know.
dean says ‘you’re human, now’ and pointedly looks at cas’ lap. (meta)
their goodbye is decidedly not how you would say goodbye to a friend. if you were to take out that scene and place it into a gay romance movie, it would fit in perfectly.
dean gets back to the bunker and sam asks what happened to his arm, to which answers ‘oh, it was a gft from cain.’ sam then asks ‘like…the wrestler?’ (like seriously, what does sam think does in his spare time? go out and roll around with wrestlers?) dean then answers ‘i wish, that would be awesome.’ long story short, dean wants to get pinned down and roughed up by a wrestler.
instead of telling sam about canyon valley he shows him a video instead, which coincidentally involves a hot (occasionally topless) dude that is definitely dean’s type
acts awkward towards larry when they met, getting lost in his eyes and grinning a lot (meta)
guy tells dean to stop flirting with his trainer, assumes dean is into guys
dean says he relates to a girl saying it’s nice to have cushion when having sex with a guy.
dean listens to taylor swift and doesn’t turn it off (meta) (more meta)
sam comes to dean with a case of missing naked people. as far as Dean knows, they’re all men. the one confirmed case sam shows him is a man, whose photo dean enlarges.
he then says ‘bout time this gig got an R rating’ (meta)
dean is visibly worried that ‘nothing is ever deleted off of the internet’, even though it’s canon that sam knows that dean watches anime porn online and was on a dating site to look for women, i wondr what he’s possibly hiduing?
donnie is sad that dean doesn’t sit at the bar and talk to him, hinting that it’s something that dean usually does. says ‘I guess I’m by myself, then’ when dean walks away. proving that dean usually sits at the bar with donnie rather than try to pick up chicks, as some would assume
dean and cas are very touchy-feely, dean finding any excuse to touch him, with the blanket, helping him up, unbuttoning his shirt etc. he also strokes cas’ thigh and hold his hand in the warehouse scene.
dean hooking up with a guy in the roadhouse. (meta)
now if you compare this list of bi!dean moments with the list of straight!dean moments, you can definitely see that the proof for bisexual dean vastly outweighs the proof for straight!dean. which isn’t hard, as there isn’t any proof for straight dean; which i’m gonna prove for you real quick right here:
1. people like to use the fact that dean said he ‘didn’t swing that way’ to prove that he’s straight, when in fact, it’s null and void. no closeted queer person would come out to a random person, especially an enemy, which dean was speaking to each time he’s said something along those lines. when dean is approached in a non-platonic manner by non-enemies, though, he doesn’t say ‘he doesn’t swing that way.’ or deny his sexuality whatsoever. (for example, with aaron.)
2. people also like to argue that the fact dean has never kissed or had sex with a man on the show means he’s not bisexual, which isn’t true. a person of any sexuality can have never kissed or had sex with anyone, and it wouldn’t lessen their sexuality. (for example: charlie was still as much of a lesbian before she kissed gilda as she was after.)
3. then of course there’s this interview that kripke did. this is not evidence against bi!dean! eric kripke, the show’s creator, has never called dean straight. he said that he thought the dynamic between sam and dean (who are brothers) is not unlike the dynamic between sebastian and miles from revolution (being the topic of the interview), who are two straight men. this quote by him is often used out of context by people trying to disprove bisexual dean by saying that the two straight men he’s talking about are sam and dean, when the people in question aren’t even on supernatural.
but yeah, carry on saying dean is straight if that’s what floats your boat, and if you do happen to know any evidence for straight dean, i’d be happy to debunk it for you
¯_(ツ)_/¯
*this only contains the more obvious moments, and there is more evidence in the show that isn’t on here, such as in the symbolism, body language, tone or set design of a few episodes, but they’re smaller and/or more open to interpretation than these, so they’re not on here. feel free to watch the show and try to find more!
I also find it interesting that this isn’t the first time it’s been called a bromance. Metaton did it last season in 10×10.
METATRON: “Dean Winchester, whose entire existence is defined by a war on the dark and monstrous, bromancing around with the King of Hell!”
that’s Dean’s face as soon as the words leave Metatron’s mouth. He then proceeds to punch him in the face.
I feel like the fact that Crowley is calling it a bromance is really what’s surprising him here. Not to mention his non response when Sam called it a “summer of love”.
Yeah, considering Dean was labelling it “embarrassing” as early as 10×04, I’m pretty sure his in-universe surprise would be that Crowley has started editing their shared history himself, in a way that DEAN has never denied or edited to such a degree, but rather lets exist as a shameful thing that happened.
In fact it was Dean exploiting that past connection by keeping the answer phone message and using it against the demon mooks that was a successful weapon, whereas Crowley was basically all episode demonstrating a lack of control or in managing the stories he wanted to be in control of (making himself “Uncle Hoppity” to Amara being the main example. No I am not over that book yet. :P)… Dean using that answerphone message as a weapon is exploiting the truth of what happened between him and Crowley in a way that Crowley didn’t own to, in his way of trying to redefine and gain control of the situation, namely, as the above gifset is about, his ongoing issues with being too attached to Dean, by denying that it was ever more than he said it was.
(Considering how they have used answerphone messages as weapons before I would actually venture that in-universe the explanation for Dean keeping it is that he probably would have deleted some/most of the Crowley answerphone messages, but recognised that particular soundbite as one in particular that would be useful since it started with a lot of generic loud Crowley noises before getting personal – in the situation, exactly enough to draw demons to their trap… On the other hand it offers another level when it comes to analysis that keeping the ex’s answerphone messages is just… a thing.
And now that I have argued myself around to believing that Dean has the healthier and more positive understanding of Drowley right now, much to my own bemusement, I need to stop typing. :P)
Since a lot of beer meta has been going around, I thought we might talk about the use of the Schultz brand a little, especially since it’s going to feature in the up-coming episode tonight.
I think the context in which we see the brands is important, and the Schultz brand is seen in four major scenes that are connected with death and dying.
The first is Dean sharing a cold one with the croat he plugs in The End:
The second is when Sam and Dean are killed in The Dark Side of the Moon. Their bedsides are littered with blue Schultz beers, and like @sandraugiga has pointed, in heaven the colors of the brand are reversed: in heaven the beer is red and gold.
The third major appearance of the brand is in The Point of No Return, the context being that Dean has chosen to say yes to Michael. Essentially he has chosen to die and has been making preparations for his eventual death. The street preacher kneels down to pray for the angels to come and claim Dean.
The fourth major appearance of the brand is in the eleventh hour, in Two Minutes to Midnight, right after Dean has had a meeting with Death. Dean drinks the beer while asking Bobby what he thinks Death will do to people who lie to his face.
There are four major scenes connecting the beer to death, and the name may also contain a clue. Schultz (Schuld) has the meaning of ‘debt’ in Germanic languages, and is furthermore connected to medieval tax-collectors – and the only two things that certain in life, according to the old adage, are death and taxes.
So, I propose that on the show the Schultz brand is connected to death, or the looming presence of death, and the rest of the appearances of the brand might be reviewed against it. At least one other instance where the brand is featured in connection with a major character death is Nightshifter.
Since the beers are behind Dean, it’s possible it also foreshadows the deaths that were to come at the end of the season.
But fact remains that three times that we see a character drink the beer, they die soon after: Jaeger and Dean, Sam and Dean, and Bobby.
Addition following Our Little World:
The episode featured a murder in front of the Schultz beer sign.
This seems to be pretty poignant evidence in favour of interpreting the beer brand as a signal for death (& taxes – and incidentally, often the figure of the “Holy Tax-Accountant”, cf. Dean drinking the beer in The Third Man while he calls for Castiel).
So now we must ask ourselves what it means that both Sam and Dean were drinking Schultz beer in Baby, but that Sam didn’t pack all the beer Dean had intended for them to drink. Because Shultz is the beer of death.
It’s been a
while since we’ve had a very clear female parallel for Cas in an episode. I
remember Hannah was a parallel to Cas last season. In fact, a year ago, many
people were upset because they perceived a ‘romantic vibe’ between both
characters, but that didn’t bother me.
I preferred to analyze the similarities between Hannah and Cas. Now in episode 11×06, we saw Amara
as an obvious parallel to Cas.
The scene
between Dean and Amara that has perturbed so many people was a complete parallel
from beginning to end. “Tell me about
the Darkness”, Castiel asked Metatron exactly as Amara was asking Dean, “Tell me what is happening here between
us.”The next thing she says is, “You save me, I save you,” and then she
does this:
Can you
think of two other people saving each other? I mean, it’s not like Cas had
flashbacks at the beginning of the episode where we were reminded of “Cas. CAS! This isn’t you. This is the spell.
You can beat this!” and “I won’t let
you walk out of this room”. It’s not like Cas remembered Dean getting beat
up because he wanted to save Cas or Cas himself getting beat up because he
wanted to save Dean. Last season, Dean had become a murderer, a “thing” that
deserved to be “hunted”, but Cas wanted to save him. On the other hand, due to
Rowena’s spell, Cas had also become a “thing” that deserved to be “hunted”, but
Dean never considered the possibility of killing him. He wanted to save Cas. Both
of them always want to save each other. It’s true that Dean and Sam are always
saving each other as well, but in this episode we had specific reminders and
they were about Dean and Cas, from Cas’ point of view, just as Amara is trying
to figure out why she and Dean save each other. By the way, the fact that she
touched Dean’s face reminded me of this:
And this:
It also
reminded me that Cas has never touched anybody else’s face like that. Not even
Sam’s.
Anyway, let’s move on. Amara
continued her speech:
“You were the first thing I saw when I was
freed and it had been so long. Maybe that’s it. My first experience of his
creation. You can’t help but represent that for me. The sweet triumph and even
sweeter folly of what he’s wrought. There’s no fighting it. I’m fascinated.”
That could apply
to Cas so well. Dean was the soul Cas had to retrieve from Hell and the reason
he had to come to Earth in a vessel. Dean was the first thing Cas saw as worthy
of salvation even if Dean didn’t think he deserved it; the first thing he saw
as worthy of his trust; the first thing he saw as worthy of his rebellion
against Heaven; the first thing he saw as worthy of his protection; the first
thing he saw as a role-model; the first thing he saw as his mission. However,
Dean was also the first thing he saw when he was freed from the strings that
Heaven pulled; the first thing he saw when he was freed from death as an angel
(twice); the first thing he saw when he was freed from the souls of Purgatory;
the first thing he saw when he was freed from his ‘memory loss’; the first
thing he saw when he was freed from Purgatory; the first thing he saw when he
was freed from Naomi’s mind-control; the first thing he saw when he was freed
from death as a human; and the first thing he saw when he was freed from Rowena’s
spell.
Maybe that’s
it. Dean represents Cas’ first experience of God’s creation, too. But where Cas
always sees works of art, Amara sees things that God screwed up. Whatever it is
that makes Amara and Dean save each other keeps her fascinated. “There’s no fighting it.” But she doesn’t
know what it is. She asked why. Just as we continue to ask what exactly it is
that makes Dean and Cas save each other.
Dean asked
that once (8×22). He knew he would have stabbed in the neck anybody doing the
things Cas had done, but he was still giving Cas a free pass. Why? “Because it’s
Cas” was Sam’s answer. But that’s not exactly an answer. That doesn’t explain a
thing. What is so special about Cas? And also, what is so special about Dean?
Why has Cas given up so much because of him? The question is important,
considering that in this episode, Metatron was trying to decipher Cas. He
thought Cas was scared, but that wasn’t it. Then he thought Cas was mad for
being “everyone’s tool”, manipulated and used by enemies and friends alike.
What
Metatron said was meant to affect Cas. I’m not even surprised that Dean was
kind of mean to Cas at the end of the episode. After hearing from Metatron that
he’s a tool for his friends, Castiel wouldn’t be happy to hear Dean shouting at
him and complaining because he let Metatron go. It’s time for Cas to figure out what’s happening here between him and
Dean. There’s no fighting the saving each other, but… WHY?
PS: The
fight scene between Sam and the demons and Cas and Metatron was such an obvious
parallel too that I won’t even talk so much about it. Sam had the chance to
kill the third demon attacking him just as Cas had the chance to kill Metatron.
They both chose to stop. They both respected a non-killing policy. Saving
people! One day, if Sam gets his apple-pie life and Dean needs somebody who
always remembers the importance of “saving people” not just “hunting things”,
Cas will be able to do it.
Tonight’s Dean & Amara scene didn’t come across as romantic or sexual to me at all? Neither did their scene in 11×01? In both scenes, Dean seemed scared to me, not turned-on or interested. He’s disturbed by his inability to hurt her, even though she’s so dangerous. It reminded me more of his scenes with that man of letters guy – the one that wanted to collect him and was trying to trigger him with the first blade. Dean was terrified and didn’t have the power to fight back, while both Amara and… I think it was Magnus?… were both fascinated by Dean for reasons beyond his control.
It’s a parallel and a contrast to Cas, who likes Dean for what I would call the ‘right’ reasons – Cas likes Dean for who he is, and not what he represents. Dean also does represent things to Cas, but his like for Dean as a person is first and foremost (though this has not always been the case, I’d say).
There’s tension in the scenes between Dean and Amara, but not all tension is sexual or romantic.
Every time I see their interactions I see him “frozen”. Like a deer caught in headlights. He doesn’t have that romantic sexual look to him. I don’t know. Maybe people are seeing things we’re not seeing but I do NOT get romantic/sexual vibes from it at all. More like fear like you said. And now knowing what we know about her, and how God played the roles in their lives, I’m even more intrigued
My thought was a rabbit mesmerized by a snake, but yeah. Tharn, pretty much.
I think we’re supposed to get that creeped out feeling when we see them together, and YES, it’s exactly like the thing with Magnus in Blade Runners.
Or like the vampire that turned him in the alley in Live Free or Twihard, once Dean realizes he can’t fight his way out of it. I mean, that was the ultimate in creeper vibes. Also, the song they used tonight is so, so not romantic. I’m pretty sure we’re supposed to be afraid of Amara too.
I also thought there was something in her and Cas both using “tell me” at the same time. I guess I just feel like Amara is a Cas mirror in this particular scene, given where the conversation goes immediately after that, and she/Cas lets Dean/Metatron go, when it might have been in her/Cas’ best interests to not.
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