sunbeamdean:

do you guys understand that dean and castiel are literally in love? that in moments of uncertainty and fear dean wants to hold castiel’s face in his hands, to ground him and keep him in this moment? that when castiel looks at dean, tries to fathom what the two of them have been through, all this millennia-old eloquent ancient creature can say is “dean, i… there aren’t words”? that dean feels so deeply the pain of having hurt castiel that he refuses to accept the relief of angelic healing? DO YOU UNDERSTAND?